She knows what everyone else would say about the fact that the only time she feels safe to cry is tucked in the arms of her husbands best friend after he's shagged her rotten and Lily does not care.

If they had a clue, just *one* simple stinking clue about how terrifying it is to be hunted like a snidget by the kinds of people Death Eaters are.

If they knew how it felt to have to quit your job because you can't trust anyone with your child, how it felt to have to sing and play and giggle when everyday your husband comes home paler, more tired, more despondant because they still haven't found not so much as a trace of his parents.

If they knew how very frightening it is to know your family is in so much danger that sometimes if you hold to still you can feel screams stuck inside your chest and you have to swallow them because if you start you won't stop, not once, then they'd shut their big fat safe mouths and never say a word about the fact that Lily Potter can only cry when Sirius Black has her tucked under his body still trembling from his touch.

And if they knew how very scared she is of the charm being cast tomorrow and that she won't see Sirius again until the danger has passed, she likes to think they (and *they* always look like Petunia. Rows and rows of her sister) would shut up and let her have her fears and her release.

At least until they find out that James *knows*. That might set them off again.