Late at night, when Lucifer stretches out on a worn blanket and pulls a beat-up leather coat over himself, Sam shares his memories.
They dream of flying through the cosmos, one of thousands, full and complete and legion. They dream of lucky charms and thundercats and a big brother who was cool and perfect.
One day, Lucifer always told Sam, as they rested together deep in Sam's mind. One day, he will come back to you and beg you for absolution. He will realize he has been wrong and will crawl to you, so very sorry.
Sam knows that won't happen. He knows that, if anything, he will crawl to Dean and sob at his feet.
And he knows that Dean will forgive him. Knows that Lucifer will take advantage of that, because Dean's is the last outpost of resistance in the world.
Forgive me, he whispers, trying to forget what his weakness has done. Dean, forgive me.
(He's not awake when Lucifer kills his brother, but he still feels it, and he buries himself completely in dreams of what they once had been.)
this is how it ends - gen, PG
They dream of flying through the cosmos, one of thousands, full and complete and legion. They dream of lucky charms and thundercats and a big brother who was cool and perfect.
One day, Lucifer always told Sam, as they rested together deep in Sam's mind. One day, he will come back to you and beg you for absolution. He will realize he has been wrong and will crawl to you, so very sorry.
Sam knows that won't happen. He knows that, if anything, he will crawl to Dean and sob at his feet.
And he knows that Dean will forgive him. Knows that Lucifer will take advantage of that, because Dean's is the last outpost of resistance in the world.
Forgive me, he whispers, trying to forget what his weakness has done. Dean, forgive me.
(He's not awake when Lucifer kills his brother, but he still feels it, and he buries himself completely in dreams of what they once had been.)