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comment_ficAnd here we are... we've made it to another weekend. Time for Saturday's Free for all
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Date: 2012-03-31 11:31 pm (UTC)Fill: Too, PG
Date: 2012-03-31 11:32 pm (UTC)Yes, there was the betrayal. They don't trust many people; they've maybe never trusted someone like they trusted Cas. And they didn't just trust Cas with themselves - they trusted him with them. There had always been something between them more than brotherhood; they knew that. But they had known that once they crossed that line completely they could never cross back. They'd known that they couldn't possibly work without those things that Cas eventually brought to the table.
They trusted Cas to keep them working.
That much trust means that much more pain when things fall apart. But the betrayal isn't even the worst part. The worst part is the guilt.
The thought... Maybe they trusted Cas with too much. Maybe no one could have held up under that much pressure, even their angel. Even without Raphael and Lucifer and everything else to get in the way...
The guilt is eating them alive, Sam thinks. What little hasn't been consumed by hurt and anger and, beneath everything, a deep, dull sense of loss that Sam doesn't think he'll ever get used to, no matter how many loved ones he's lost before.
What Sam can't figure out is why Dean can't just let them deal with the loss together.
Why does Dean have to pretend that he isn't hurting as badly as he clearly is? Knowing that Sam is the one person who can't ever be fooled by his bullshit.
'You stabbed me in the back. You have nothing to say to me...' were some of Cas's last words to Sam. Why can't Dean see how that haunts Sam?
'I loved him too, asshole!' Sam sometimes wants to scream. Sam loved Cas... He loves Dean. He loves Cas, to be totally honest, and he knows that Dean still does too.
They love Cas together. Why can't they miss him that way too?
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