He knows that one day Sam will grow tired of this crusade, even if Sam won't admit it. He knows that Sam will go back to Stanford, pick right up where he left off, and be that perfect normal student again.
Sam hasn't apologized once. Hasn't asked Dean to forgive him for leaving, for abandoning them both, him and Dad. Sam doesn’t think he did anything wrong.
And maybe he’s right, Dean admits, watching Sam search through endless webpages for the one that’ll break the case wide open. Maybe leaving was what was best for Sammy at the time. Maybe he needed to try something new.
Dean knows he’s never getting out of hunting. Really, neither of them are. But he knows that Sam will try again, and then maybe a third time. For being a near-genius, Sam is blindingly stupid sometimes.
Sam hasn’t apologized once. Dean doesn’t ever expect him to. He’ll just brush it off if the kid ever tries, because Sam won’t really mean it. He can’t.
And Sam would say that it doesn’t matter, but they both know that it does. Just like they both know that even if Dean could utter the words I forgive you for leaving he wouldn’t mean it, either.
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the sound of silence screaming - gen, PG, season 1
Date: 2009-10-19 02:11 am (UTC)Sam hasn't apologized once. Hasn't asked Dean to forgive him for leaving, for abandoning them both, him and Dad. Sam doesn’t think he did anything wrong.
And maybe he’s right, Dean admits, watching Sam search through endless webpages for the one that’ll break the case wide open. Maybe leaving was what was best for Sammy at the time. Maybe he needed to try something new.
Dean knows he’s never getting out of hunting. Really, neither of them are. But he knows that Sam will try again, and then maybe a third time. For being a near-genius, Sam is blindingly stupid sometimes.
Sam hasn’t apologized once. Dean doesn’t ever expect him to. He’ll just brush it off if the kid ever tries, because Sam won’t really mean it. He can’t.
And Sam would say that it doesn’t matter, but they both know that it does. Just like they both know that even if Dean could utter the words I forgive you for leaving he wouldn’t mean it, either.