He crashed the car not for some great truth or even for a good reason. He was pissed and he wanted her attention. He'd thought that maybe if he acted out enough she'd see him for himself and stop hiding away from the memories of his father that she sees when she looks at his face.
When she comes to get him from the detention center she still doesn't look him in the eye or even speak to him. It's not till their riding away in Winona's hovercar that she says anything and all she says is "I forgive you."
Maybe she thinks that redemption is what he is looking for or maybe not. Perhaps she want's to think that he feels as guilty for his father's death as she does and this was his way of seeking forgiveness.
He wants to scream that he wasn't looking for forgiveness but instead he bites his lip until it bleeds. This is the closest she's come to caring about him in a long time and he doesn't want to mess it up.
She returns to space the next day barely stopping to tell Jim goodbye and still unable to look him in the eye. Jim isn't as mad about that as he thought he would be, but maybe that just because he knows he'll see her again a year from now when he pulls his next big stunt. Because if forgiveness is the only thing she can give him then he's going to soak up every ounce of it and use it to fill the gaping hole in his life where Winona should be.
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All She Can Give Him [Star Trek XI,Gen,Jim and Winona,G]
Date: 2009-12-01 04:29 pm (UTC)When she comes to get him from the detention center she still doesn't look him in the eye or even speak to him. It's not till their riding away in Winona's hovercar that she says anything and all she says is "I forgive you."
Maybe she thinks that redemption is what he is looking for or maybe not. Perhaps she want's to think that he feels as guilty for his father's death as she does and this was his way of seeking forgiveness.
He wants to scream that he wasn't looking for forgiveness but instead he bites his lip until it bleeds. This is the closest she's come to caring about him in a long time and he doesn't want to mess it up.
She returns to space the next day barely stopping to tell Jim goodbye and still unable to look him in the eye. Jim isn't as mad about that as he thought he would be, but maybe that just because he knows he'll see her again a year from now when he pulls his next big stunt. Because if forgiveness is the only thing she can give him then he's going to soak up every ounce of it and use it to fill the gaping hole in his life where Winona should be.