Happy Tuesday - Monster Day
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Greetings Comment Fic Folks!
Today is Tuesday and I will be your pinch hitting host today!
I think Tuesday is a good day for Monsters, don't you?
So let's have them, werewolves, vampires, deformed creatures, boogie men, Frankensteins, or the more human variety, maybe even the imaginary kind...
Remember to format your prompts properly:
Supernatural, wee!Sam and wee!Dean, monsters in the closet
Leverage, Eliot, the monster inside
Crossover:
Buffy/Supernatural, Faith/Dean/Sam, things that go bump in the night
Remember the rules, and be kind to our codemonkeys--only three prompts per fandom, and only five prompts at a time. If one of them is filled, you can go ahead and post another.
And if you don't see anything that you like, you can always go through our Lonely Prompts.
Go forth and have a monstrously good time. (yeah, yeah...okay that one was uncalled for, I apologize) And Happy Tuesday y'all.
theme=monsters
Today is Tuesday and I will be your pinch hitting host today!
I think Tuesday is a good day for Monsters, don't you?
So let's have them, werewolves, vampires, deformed creatures, boogie men, Frankensteins, or the more human variety, maybe even the imaginary kind...
Remember to format your prompts properly:
Supernatural, wee!Sam and wee!Dean, monsters in the closet
Leverage, Eliot, the monster inside
Crossover:
Buffy/Supernatural, Faith/Dean/Sam, things that go bump in the night
Remember the rules, and be kind to our codemonkeys--only three prompts per fandom, and only five prompts at a time. If one of them is filled, you can go ahead and post another.
And if you don't see anything that you like, you can always go through our Lonely Prompts.
Go forth and have a monstrously good time. (yeah, yeah...okay that one was uncalled for, I apologize) And Happy Tuesday y'all.
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Monsters - 3/3
Date: 2010-02-04 05:32 pm (UTC)But with being normal came doing normal things. Like dinners and friendly gatherings and making small talk. Getting to know people. People who said their name was Anna or Morgan or Chuck or Ellie and she didn’t have to wonder what their real names were. People who made sudden movements and she never had to worry about a gun appearing in their hands. Just people. And that’s when she began to see herself through their eyes.
She listened when Ellie and Devon talked about helping someone who’d been rolled into the ER with a gunshot wound to their chest. Ellie would get misty eyed sometimes and Devon would tighten his jaw and they’d both agree on the shooter having been nothing short of a monster. She looked at Chuck’s face when he saw her and Casey in the middle of a fight. She listened to Morgan’s rendition of Bryce’s history as the worst friend Chuck had ever had.
Bryce hadn’t been perfect. Killing was killing, no matter the reason behind it. Her flawless technique when fighting was terrifying.
One year into her mission, she couldn’t tell the difference between herself and one of the bad guys.
She looked around her and tried to find something she could use as a reference to tell right from wrong. Something in her life that was unarguably good. And she could only come up with one thing: Chuck. He was a good man. His friends and family were good people. As long as she kept them safe, she’d be doing the right thing. She could be nothing short of a monster, working with people with a conscience as screwed up as her own and fighting people just like her. But she was doing the right thing. She was keeping good people safe.
She finally understood what Bryce was talking about.
Somewhere along the way, she broke the Carnal Rule once again. She fell in love with Chuck. He didn’t understand her and he had no idea what he was talking about most of the time, but somehow it happened, and she wasn’t sure she wanted to put an end to it. It felt right. Right enough for her to forget everything else and run away with him, going against her orders. Right enough to plan it again weeks later, and then realize he was one of them.
He chose being a spy. He knew he was hurting her – he may not have been a spy just yet, but he was far from an idiot and she was sure he knew – but he did it anyway. For her, for Ellie, for his father, even for Bryce, for whatever reason. He managed to convince himself that hurting someone he loved was the lesser of two evils. He was a spy before he even started his training.
And now, here she is. Trying to keep the inevitable from happening. Trying to preserve what’s left of the good man and prevent the spy from taking over. He gets closer every day. His eyes look a little harder, his voice less shaky, his flashes steadier. He’s mastered the art of lying and barely hesitates before hurting someone – an asset, Morgan, whoever it takes – for the greater good. He’ll kill, eventually. He’ll become one of them. A monster.
She’s not sure she’ll be able to live with herself if she can’t protect a good man from that.
Re: Monsters - 3/3
Date: 2010-02-04 08:30 pm (UTC)This fic was amazing.
Sarah's childhood broke my heart, especially with the fathers-in-offices and presents-on-Christmas being things that are just on television. And I LOVE your potrayal of Bryce and his perspective on who they save and how it changes her; I love ALL the things that make her moral world more contradictory and complex, especially how you pick out details to describe that are so realistic but not what I've seen in fic before(Ellie's and Morgan's story, Casey as partner+Bryce-shooter). And I LOVE the way you explain that her current crisis is because she previously had to narrow her moral center to Chuck, and so Chuck's becoming a spy actually takes something away from her that's even huger than taking their relationship away.
Okay, I think I'm done gushing now. Thanks SO much for writing this fic; it's beautiful and painful and truthful and great.
Re: Monsters - 3/3
Date: 2010-02-04 09:15 pm (UTC)Thank you so much for your kind words. I had a blast writing this, and I'm really glad you enjoyed it :D
Re: Monsters - 3/3
Date: 2010-03-29 05:40 am (UTC)I'm pretty sure you mean "Cardinal Rule", not "Carnal Rule", though... :)