comment_fic | i wait for the postman to bring me a letter

since the show (do I really need to specify which one? LOL) start and Mary Ann McGarrett was introduced, I've wanted to do a fic that focused on her. Oh if I had the talent and there were enough clips on the show of her, I'd do a video.

Then I heard Lindsay Lohan's Confessions Of A Broken Heart ~~(it's secretly one of my favorite songs)~~ and it just sounds like Mary crying out for attention of her father...and maybe even Steve.

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter
And I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
Family in crisis that only grows older

I'm sure when she was sent to the mainland, she was hoping that either her father would change his mind and send for them to come back, or at the very least, have some sort of communication with her.

Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go

Maybe she's thinking that if her mother was killed in the car accident, she wouldn't have been sent away. Yes, this is a daughter crying out to her father, but this all started, really, when Doris McGarrett was killed (first we were told by a drunk driver, but later found out it was because of John's investigation).

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

I think I remember Steve mentioning that Mary acted out a lot once their mother was done and was her way of getting attention, but I don't think it managed to turn her father's head to really pay attention to her

And I wear all your old clothes, the old polo sweater
I dream of another you, one who would never
Never leave me alone to pick up the pieces
Daddy to hold me, that's what I needed

So why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go

This part is when I think she comes back to Hawaii and she's in the house she grew up in and finds one of her father's old pieces of clothing and she wears it while she's going through the Champ box (not when we saw on the show)...and she's wondering why he had to go - why he threw himself into whatever he was investigating...and if that was what got him killed.

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don't know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me
Cause these are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart
Of a broken heart

I love you, I love you
I love you, I...
I love you!

Deep down, I believe she loved her father, like Steve did, but without their mother around, they no longer had someone to tell them they were loved and that maybe prevented them from being able to accept love as well.

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don't know you but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me?
Did you ever love me?
These are...
The confessions of a broken heart

Ohhhh... yeah

And I wait for the postman to bring me a letter

And then the final time she was sent away. This time by her brother because it wasn't safe. She was being sent away by yet another male figure in her life and she's maybe wondering if it's really her.

I don't know about all that. just my thoughts. Maybe a little of how I would have felt if I were Mary.