Avengers, any/any, after a battle one of them wants to celebrate and share the victory with others and the other just wants to retreat and deal with the violence he/she was part of
He’d let Tony drag him out for shawarma the first time mainly because he was glad he wasn’t dead. A good portion of the city would never be the same, and God only knew how many innocents were killed.
But with Tony it’s a regular thing. Steve doesn’t know if he needs to use up all the post-battle adrenaline by going on a tear or what, but he usually drags them out for beer or IHOP or goodness knows what else. Clint and Thor are always up for a party, and Natasha usually rolls her eyes, but joins them, leaving Bruce, who realizes Steve’s not comfortable with this, to try and mediate.
Steve was…is a soldier. Tony’s not, as he made abundantly clear after they thought Loki killed Coulson. Every battle he’s in as part of the Avengers has collateral damage, and every time he wonders if it’s worth it. Tony may think he’s immortal, Natasha may wave off any attempts at medical care as “coddling,” but Steve’s lost people, in war and outside of it, and he knows what it’s like.
Knows what it’s like to look into the face of a friend you can’t save, knows what it’s like to see innocent people shot or blown up because you weren’t fast enough, weren’t strong enough. Knows the dark side of human nature in a way that Tony never can.
The others have all left–he’s not even sure where they went this time–and he’s startled to hear Tony’s voice say “Moping again?”
He sits up on his bed, finds Tony’s silhouette in the doorway. “I’m not moping!
Tony snorts. “Like hell, you’re not.”
“I had to kill people today, Tony!”
“Steve, those people were trying to kill us,” Tony says, sitting down at his desk chair, “and goodness knows how many innocent bystanders. You did what you had to.”
Steve buries his face in his hands for a moment. “I hate war.”
“This isn’t war, Steve,” Tony says gently.
“Isn’t it? Them against us, kill or be killed, what would you call it?” He flops down on his bed again. “What would you know about war anyway?”
A moment later he’s yanked back up to a sitting position by the hair to see Tony, eyes blazing. “You know what, Cap? I dunno about everyone else, but I’m getting kinda sick of your ‘Woe is me, no one understands,’ crap. You’re not the only one who’s lost people. Barton, Banner, you can sure as hell bet Natasha has. And you wanna know what I know about war, read my file!”
Before Steve can respond, he stomps out.
***
He’d meant to read Stark’s file, meant to read all of them, but between trying to get accustomed to this century and fighting off every madman with an army of flying creatures behind him, the only one he’s actually read is Bruce’s.
With some help from JARVIS, he pulls up Tony’s file and skims through it. Only child, genius potential, parents killed in a car crash…he skims forward. Heir to Stark Industries, maker of the Jericho missile… He stops skimming as he reads the account of his kidnapping. There’s not much detail, unsurprisingly. Steve already knows Stark’s reaction to a debriefing. But there’s enough there that Steve can put the pieces together from his own experience.
He was wrong. Stark does know about war.
***
He’s not sure quite how to apologize to Tony–he’s apt to ignore any attempt or deflect with a joke–so he lets it lie. Thankfully, what little professionalism Tony has is enough to keep him from showing his animosity in the field–especially considering that two weeks after the incident they have to put down a minor invasion of giant octopi.
Steve’s exhausted afterwards, sore in every bone and muscle, and when Tony suggests that they go out for a celebratory drink, even Barton looks incredulous.
“Sure,” Steve says, making a snap decision, and he sees Tony’s eyes widen before he grins and claps an hand on his shoulder.
“Guess it’s just you and me, Cap.”
Steve rolls his shoulders, wincing at the knots, but he can’t bring himself to regret the decision.
Jo was not a fan of winter. She dreaded the slippery ice and messy snow, and the brisk chilly air that left her soft, pale cheeks rosy red. Winter caused trouble with traffic conditions and business at the Roadhouse was extremely slow—no hunter wanted a cold beer when there was a damp chilliness in the air. To her, winter was as evil as the monsters she hunted. Yet there was something wonderful and glorious about winter—Dean Winchester was a cuddle monster.
Normally he would bitch about cuddling, but not on those winter nights. He welcomed her into his arms and snuggled her tightly, and she went to sleep lying in the warmth of his strong arms. And that was how she awoke every morning; as always, the first thing Jo noticed was that she wasn’t cold at all—she was comfortably warm and snuggly cozy, blissfully wrapped up tight in Dean’s embrace. He smelled of leather and whisky, and the moment she turned over to face him, snuggling up under his chin, Dean, still asleep, wrapped his arms even tighter around her and pulled her close. She nuzzled against his chest, sighing with a soft breath of happiness and contentment.
“I love you,” she whispered, wrapping her arms around him for a hug.
He said nothing, but his actions spoke for him; he kissed her forehead, and Jo smiled with a joyful grin. Winter nights weren’t so bad—especially when she was lying warm and snuggled in Dean Winchester’s arms.
(Spoilers for Captain America: Winter Soldier. All quotes from either it or First Avenger. Gen with Bucky/Steve leanings.)
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Don't win the war 'til I get there, he said, and then he became a supersoldier, and he performed like a dancing monkey, and he thought he was 'doing his part' for the war, and he hated it, he hated every last second of it, but he was doing his part, and --
The 107th was captured, Bucky was dead, but he couldn't, how could he accept that without any proof? Of course he couldn't (you're taking all the stupid with you) (I'm with you to the end of the line) so he found Bucky (alive) and tore the base down around him, and he was finally doing his part, finally doing good --
And. And then.
And then he couldn't reach far enough and Bucky.
Bucky.
Throwing himself after Bucky would be spitting in Bucky's face, would make his sacrifice worthless, and he needed to tear Hydra down and burn it all.
(He could have escaped the plane.
No, he couldn't have.)
He wakes up and they tell him they won the war.
He wakes up and aliens tear open the sky.
He wakes up and there still battles to fight.
He wakes up and Hydra's still alive.
(He wakes up and Bucky's looking at him with blank eyes, Bucky's attacking him, Bucky's shooting him, Bucky's stabbed him.)
(He wakes up choking on water, and he knows he couldn't have gotten himself out of the river.)
There's only one battle left for him. He's given enough of himself and he refuses to dance to anyone else's tune anymore.
When do we start? Sam asks and Steve looks down at the file.
He let Bucky fall once. Bucky pulled him out of the river.
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Date: 2013-08-10 05:30 am (UTC)Addams Family (movies)/Harry Potter, author’s choice, old magic
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Date: 2013-08-10 05:31 am (UTC)Newsies (film), Jack/David or Jack/Spot, Hogwarts AU
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Date: 2013-08-10 05:32 am (UTC)The Black Jewels series, Marian/Lucivar, when Marian’s birth family learns exactly who she married – and exactly who she now calls family
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Date: 2013-08-10 05:33 am (UTC)Harry Potter, Harry + Tom Riddle,
we are very alike, you know, one dark-haired little boy said to another.
I know, said the second.
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Date: 2013-08-10 05:33 am (UTC)Harry Potter, Harry, he refuses to be the savior for a world of Iscariots
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Date: 2013-08-10 06:38 am (UTC)not a fill, but my thought process on sorting this one out:
Date: 2013-08-10 03:59 pm (UTC)Re: not a fill, but my thought process on sorting this one out:
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Date: 2013-08-10 07:54 am (UTC)<b>Fill</b>
Date: 2013-08-11 01:20 am (UTC)But with Tony it’s a regular thing. Steve doesn’t know if he needs to use up all the post-battle adrenaline by going on a tear or what, but he usually drags them out for beer or IHOP or goodness knows what else. Clint and Thor are always up for a party, and Natasha usually rolls her eyes, but joins them, leaving Bruce, who realizes Steve’s not comfortable with this, to try and mediate.
Steve was…is a soldier. Tony’s not, as he made abundantly clear after they thought Loki killed Coulson. Every battle he’s in as part of the Avengers has collateral damage, and every time he wonders if it’s worth it. Tony may think he’s immortal, Natasha may wave off any attempts at medical care as “coddling,” but Steve’s lost people, in war and outside of it, and he knows what it’s like.
Knows what it’s like to look into the face of a friend you can’t save, knows what it’s like to see innocent people shot or blown up because you weren’t fast enough, weren’t strong enough. Knows the dark side of human nature in a way that Tony never can.
The others have all left–he’s not even sure where they went this time–and he’s startled to hear Tony’s voice say “Moping again?”
He sits up on his bed, finds Tony’s silhouette in the doorway. “I’m not moping!
Tony snorts. “Like hell, you’re not.”
“I had to kill people today, Tony!”
“Steve, those people were trying to kill us,” Tony says, sitting down at his desk chair, “and goodness knows how many innocent bystanders. You did what you had to.”
Steve buries his face in his hands for a moment. “I hate war.”
“This isn’t war, Steve,” Tony says gently.
“Isn’t it? Them against us, kill or be killed, what would you call it?” He flops down on his bed again. “What would you know about war anyway?”
A moment later he’s yanked back up to a sitting position by the hair to see Tony, eyes blazing. “You know what, Cap? I dunno about everyone else, but I’m getting kinda sick of your ‘Woe is me, no one understands,’ crap. You’re not the only one who’s lost people. Barton, Banner, you can sure as hell bet Natasha has. And you wanna know what I know about war, read my file!”
Before Steve can respond, he stomps out.
***
He’d meant to read Stark’s file, meant to read all of them, but between trying to get accustomed to this century and fighting off every madman with an army of flying creatures behind him, the only one he’s actually read is Bruce’s.
With some help from JARVIS, he pulls up Tony’s file and skims through it. Only child, genius potential, parents killed in a car crash…he skims forward. Heir to Stark Industries, maker of the Jericho missile…
He stops skimming as he reads the account of his kidnapping. There’s not much detail, unsurprisingly. Steve already knows Stark’s reaction to a debriefing. But there’s enough there that Steve can put the pieces together from his own experience.
He was wrong. Stark does know about war.
***
He’s not sure quite how to apologize to Tony–he’s apt to ignore any attempt or deflect with a joke–so he lets it lie. Thankfully, what little professionalism Tony has is enough to keep him from showing his animosity in the field–especially considering that two weeks after the incident they have to put down a minor invasion of giant octopi.
Steve’s exhausted afterwards, sore in every bone and muscle, and when Tony suggests that they go out for a celebratory drink, even Barton looks incredulous.
“Sure,” Steve says, making a snap decision, and he sees Tony’s eyes widen before he grins and claps an hand on his shoulder.
“Guess it’s just you and me, Cap.”
Steve rolls his shoulders, wincing at the knots, but he can’t bring himself to regret the decision.
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Date: 2013-08-10 07:59 am (UTC)FILLED!
Date: 2013-10-03 06:00 pm (UTC)Normally he would bitch about cuddling, but not on those winter nights. He welcomed her into his arms and snuggled her tightly, and she went to sleep lying in the warmth of his strong arms. And that was how she awoke every morning; as always, the first thing Jo noticed was that she wasn’t cold at all—she was comfortably warm and snuggly cozy, blissfully wrapped up tight in Dean’s embrace. He smelled of leather and whisky, and the moment she turned over to face him, snuggling up under his chin, Dean, still asleep, wrapped his arms even tighter around her and pulled her close. She nuzzled against his chest, sighing with a soft breath of happiness and contentment.
“I love you,” she whispered, wrapping her arms around him for a hug.
He said nothing, but his actions spoke for him; he kissed her forehead, and Jo smiled with a joyful grin. Winter nights weren’t so bad—especially when she was lying warm and snuggled in Dean Winchester’s arms.
~END
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Date: 2013-08-10 12:41 pm (UTC)spoilers for Cap2: Winter Soldier
Date: 2014-05-07 07:32 pm (UTC)...
Don't win the war 'til I get there, he said, and then he became a supersoldier, and he performed like a dancing monkey, and he thought he was 'doing his part' for the war, and he hated it, he hated every last second of it, but he was doing his part, and --
The 107th was captured, Bucky was dead, but he couldn't, how could he accept that without any proof? Of course he couldn't (you're taking all the stupid with you) (I'm with you to the end of the line) so he found Bucky (alive) and tore the base down around him, and he was finally doing his part, finally doing good --
And. And then.
And then he couldn't reach far enough and Bucky.
Bucky.
Throwing himself after Bucky would be spitting in Bucky's face, would make his sacrifice worthless, and he needed to tear Hydra down and burn it all.
(He could have escaped the plane.
No, he couldn't have.)
He wakes up and they tell him they won the war.
He wakes up and aliens tear open the sky.
He wakes up and there still battles to fight.
He wakes up and Hydra's still alive.
(He wakes up and Bucky's looking at him with blank eyes, Bucky's attacking him, Bucky's shooting him, Bucky's stabbed him.)
(He wakes up choking on water, and he knows he couldn't have gotten himself out of the river.)
There's only one battle left for him. He's given enough of himself and he refuses to dance to anyone else's tune anymore.
When do we start? Sam asks and Steve looks down at the file.
He let Bucky fall once. Bucky pulled him out of the river.
Right now, he says.
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