Ben can't sleep. He's in pain, for one thing, quite a bit actually. It's his own fault for refusing to take anything after. (Well, him and the damn poltergeist.) But he can't really be blamed for wanting to feel, can he?
That was all Jesse's fault, and that unnatural power that reared its head every now and again, when Jesse really, really wanted something with all his heart and soul. No childish whims--at least, not since the war ended.
He sighs, and Jesse shifts beside him. Ben smiles, begrudgingly. Can't really be upset at the man who wanted him alive so badly that he managed to reverse death, no matter the physical and mental toll on himself. No matter how fragile and unworthy it makes Ben feel.
He wonders if this is anywhere near how Uncle Sam felt, after. At least, Ben doesn't have to worry about Jesse going to hell. Been there, done that, laid waste to the place. He hasn't seen a demon in five years, not since…
But he can't think about her, not now, so he wraps an arm around Jesse and whispers "Thank you" into his skin.
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Re: spoilers for Supernatural 5.6
Date: 2009-10-21 10:26 am (UTC)That was all Jesse's fault, and that unnatural power that reared its head every now and again, when Jesse really, really wanted something with all his heart and soul. No childish whims--at least, not since the war ended.
He sighs, and Jesse shifts beside him. Ben smiles, begrudgingly. Can't really be upset at the man who wanted him alive so badly that he managed to reverse death, no matter the physical and mental toll on himself. No matter how fragile and unworthy it makes Ben feel.
He wonders if this is anywhere near how Uncle Sam felt, after. At least, Ben doesn't have to worry about Jesse going to hell. Been there, done that, laid waste to the place. He hasn't seen a demon in five years, not since…
But he can't think about her, not now, so he wraps an arm around Jesse and whispers "Thank you" into his skin.